Ahmad Ridzuan bin Razali.
The best abang in the world.

Abang, adik mu rindu. Semoga abang tenang di alam sana.

Its been years i lost you abang. Aku rindu nk tengok muka annoying abang aku tu. Aku rindu nk pelok. Aku rindu nak berlari satu rumah dengan abang...

Rindu pada orang yang dah takde kat dunia ni lagi perit.

Abang,
Im very sure that our ma and pa misses you too. A LOT!
Rasa macam baru semalam abang takde.

Abang, since the day you left us, aku tak pernah menangis depan sape sape pon. Tapi harini, burst into tears.

Aku tak menangis sebab aku still tak percaya. Mase tu aku rasa macam mimpi.. Rasa macam semalam ada dekat aku. Aku lupa abang dah takde...

Abang.. Kalau kita jumpa satu hari nanti, aku nak abang dukung aku macam biasa abang buat. Okay abang?

For the best bro on earth, your little sister loves you and misses to hug you.

Al-Fatihah.

Sayang.
Semua orang rasa. Perasaan sayang yang kita sendiri tak dapat nak explain macam mana kita sayang seseorang tu.

Sayang.
Perasaan yang paling bahaya, paling berbisa yang sukar untuk hilang. Perasaan sayang ada tanpa kita sedar pon. Kadang kadang perasaan sayang ni kita sendiri tak dapat nak expect.

Chance on love is so unplanned.

Sayang.
Boleh buat hati senyum.
Boleh buat kita bahagia.
Boleh buat kita happy.
Dan sayang jugaklah boleh buat kita terluka.

Aku sendiri terluka, dengan orang yang aku sayang.
Aku... Tak dapat nak terima hakikat tu. Tak percaya. Aku diam. Bagi diri aku masa untuk berfikir dengan tenang.

Aku tawar hati. Aku follow with the flow. Aku tunggu apa yang dia bagitau one day.

So i have to be patient. And be happy as always.

For you, who i love the most,

Sorry,
Tak dapat nak jadi perfect seperti yang di idamkan. Walaupun aku terima baik buruk dirimu. Bagi aku, having you by my side pon, rasa dah complete my life.

Mungkin aku sendiri yang membosankan, annoying, mengada tak tentu pasal. Aku minta maaf. Im just being myself.

Sesakit hati aku, sehancur mana hati aku, i still love you.
Aku diam sebab aku taknak kita gaduh, sebab aku rasa aku patut tunggu lebih masa lagi untuk buat diri aku tenang untuk hadap benda nih.

Aku cuma malas nak stress pasal benda ni, walaupun aku 2 3 hari migrain sebab benda ni asyik keluar masuk dalam kepala otak aku.

Aku mintak maaf. Mungkin aku ni tak secantik perempuan yang kau idamkan. Aku tak layak nak di "label" cantik. Tetapi aku terima. Aku bersyukur dengan apa yang tuhan bagi.

Mintak maaf aku banyak kekurangan, dan aku rasa kau sendiri tak dapat nak terima kekurangan aku. But for your information,

Love is accepting.

Kalau ada benda yang tak kena, i think we should talk.

Tapi buat masa ni, bagi aku tenang dulu. Satu hari nanti aku akan tanya sendiri. Dan insha Allah, aku terima.

Aku hanya boleh pesan,

Life isnt always been good. Kadang kadang kat atas, kadang kadang kat bawah.

Karma pon sama. Sekarang aku yang kena macam ni. Esok lusa?

But its okay. I love you just the way you are. I dont want to lose you. I want us to be more mature in our relationship.

Abang, i love you, and always will. Apa apa yang jadi, apa yang kita plan untuk masa depan kita, ku doakan akan menjadi kenyataan.

Sincerely,
From your ayang, ucuk you used to call.

yes. I'm a problematic person. my life is full of problems. financial problems, health problems, relationship problems, family problems, well u name it!

and yes, of course, absolutely! I'm tired of the same problems I'm facing day to day in my life.

but, there's no such way to avoid the probs from you. you HAVE TO face it how hard is it. I'm not sighing of what I've been through, well you know, the probs makes you stronger. the harder the probs you're facing, the stronger you would be.

and i should be grateful, because I'm very sure that everybody have problems in their entire life. even, they are facing something that might hurts a lot and unbearable for me.

remember, life isn't always been good.

I'm thankful of what i have today. Alhamdulillah.

for those who have such a bad-bad day,
remember who creates you. maybe you have forgotten who creates you for the time being, but don't worry, you still have the chance to spend more time to the Creator. its just the matter of priorities. ��

when you're sad, the closest friend of yours are there just to make sure you feel alright.
when you're feeling uneasy, they give some stupid jokes just to make you forget your problems.

I'm sorry friend, if I'm over-reacting, scolded you. i shouldn't treat you like that. I'm sorry. i just need time to heal. thanks for being with me all the time as you know to comfort me as well.

to the greatest friend on earth.
i love you, stupid.

penyakit homesick maii dah....

Tetiba homesick. Cuti raya cina aku tak dapat balik, sebab duit dah banyak habis time pindah rumah haritu. aku taknak susahkan parents aku lagi.

Aku rindu sangat family aku. Rindu Terengganu. tapi takpela kot. tunggu cuti sem la nampaknyaa..

Dear Ma and Pa,

your daughter loves you guys a lot. miss you guys a lot. sorry Ma and Pa, your daughter might see you guys next two month.

your daughter cant wait to see both of you. You guys just have to be patient. ya?

sincerely,
your daughter who loves you guys more than her world.

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